Earlier this year i had the opportunity to learn how to juggle from my younger brother, who has become something of a juggle fanatic. He gave me all the tricks and points and started me slowly with one ball, then two, then the standard of three. And it was at this point that i kept hitting myself in the face and forehead. I don't know what it was that made me do this but after about two rotations, i would throw a ball right into my own face. I think i did it about 10 times when i realized...hey, this isn't getting much better...maybe i should stop.
Do you ever feel like that? That you have all these different parts of your life that are important and need to be done but in trying to juggle them all, you keep hitting yourself in the face?
My wife and I talk about this a lot. For some reason, this transition to 'adulthood' has come with a steep learning curve on juggling. We juggle our personal time, our devotion time, our couple time, our baby time, our work time, our family time and our friend time. I'm sure you can add some extras in there too. And you feel like each is important and that you really need it but you end up sucking at most of them. You stop calling your friends (sorry mo), you stop writing messages on your families facebook page (sorry kisha), you get all snotty trying to look at wallpaper (sorry honey), and you pray prayers that are just words and your mind is fully on sleep mode (sorry God). Is this what being an adult is about...trying so hard to do everything and having to say sorry to everyone?
This is that dreaded part when i want to say the "right answer" and tie everything up nice together. And I could. I could pull the right answer right out of my arse but i wouldn't be living it. So, there it is. THis is where i'm at right now. Well, at least one part of where i'm at right now. Hopefully i'll have time this month to actually write once a week instead of completely letting it go (sorry blog).
